Friday, August 25

i am a student. i go to school to study.
that shall be my new aim. i need to clear my mind. not easy. but do-able :)

youmustvanish.idon'tallowyoutoexist.youaredisturbing me.getlost.idon'tknowwhatiamthinking.sutffthatshouldn'tbe onmymindare there and it is taking up alot ofspace.i know that there are more impt things to thinkabout, but i dunno what to do.this feeling sucks.so shitty and so arghhhh.i just wann to go to the beach now and scream at the sea.i need the strong wind to blow me away.i dont like this place anymore,it is no longer an utopia,it is hell.hell of rubbish.i need the strength and power to break free.bestow me.i am tired of hiding behind that facade,acting as though i don't mind a single thing, but actually i mind.this is so tiring.i want to and i have to give up.i need to learn to let go.i need to know how to be a good student.i need to get my piriorities right.i need to learn how to be nonchalent.maybe it was best i didn't know you.freak.
~~today is the best day and the worst day of my life.how ironic it is.emoturbulance?whatever.i don't care.i don'tknow.thisisjustashittyproblem~~ ~~butiactuallyskippedmydinnerand~~
~~tearedoverit.whataloser. butguessewhat,aftertodayiamgoingtostart~~
~~overagain. iwillstandtall.iwilllearntoletgo. iwilllearntobeclevererandnotstupid.iwilldistantmyself.~~
~~iwillconconwhatastudenthastodo.i willdoit.believeme.iwillprevail~~

i ranted-
10:53 PM